Over the past 3 years, I have been pursuing my undergrad studies. Sometimes I blogged and said how I want time to pass and how much I yearn for the working life. Studying was never my kind of thing and trust me when I said I had a tough 3 years. When results were released, I could feel a tinge of relieve off my shoulders. And now I did it, I have completed my degree. 4 months on into my job, I'm still proud to say I don't miss school, at all.
Blogging is the only way I can share my thoughts now. A lot of things happened to me over the last 3-4 months. Things that I wished it should have never happened but it did. Things that are so traumatising that it should not happen to anyone ever. I never saw it coming, but it came and shattered my life so badly that I have never felt lower. The worst part is, you came and crush those pieces you broke by telling me you can't do this no more.
Sometimes I felt like a fool when being lied to again and again. Yet I told you we can rebuild and you have to make me trust you all over again. You needed time and I gave you. I came over to your place but you said nothing. Yet I was questioned on my actions as if I was at fault. The person who did wrong is not me, and why must I be the one paying for it. It's unfair. It's hurtful and I am so disappointed.
Perhaps you've got your head turned, I don't blame you. But why want the best of both worlds? You were a victim of it and you knew how it would have felt to me. Why did I deserve all these? What have I done to deserve all these? and, why did you do it?
I felt anger, disappointment, and betrayed. Yet my heart yearns for the 'you' that I have known. The 'you' that will cling on to me like a baby. The 'you' who will ask for your milo and your prawns peeled. The 'you' who will make little things and comes out with surprises very now and then. The 'you' who love me so much. I miss you, I love you.
You said if I love you, let you go.
I will.
The song that describes everything I feel right now.
只剩下钢琴陪我谈了一天
睡着的大提琴 安静的旧旧的
我想你已表现的非常明白
我懂我也知道 你没有舍不得
你说你也会难过我不相信
牵着你陪着我 也只是曾经
希望他是真的比我还要爱你
我才会逼自己离开
你要我说多难堪 我根本不想分开
为什么还要我用微笑来带过
我没有这种天份 包容你也接受他
不用担心的太多 我会一直好好过
你已经远远离开 我也会慢慢走开
为什么我连分开都迁就着你
我真的没有天份 安静的没这么快
我会学着放弃你 是因为我太爱你
Blogging is the only way I can share my thoughts now. A lot of things happened to me over the last 3-4 months. Things that I wished it should have never happened but it did. Things that are so traumatising that it should not happen to anyone ever. I never saw it coming, but it came and shattered my life so badly that I have never felt lower. The worst part is, you came and crush those pieces you broke by telling me you can't do this no more.
Sometimes I felt like a fool when being lied to again and again. Yet I told you we can rebuild and you have to make me trust you all over again. You needed time and I gave you. I came over to your place but you said nothing. Yet I was questioned on my actions as if I was at fault. The person who did wrong is not me, and why must I be the one paying for it. It's unfair. It's hurtful and I am so disappointed.
Perhaps you've got your head turned, I don't blame you. But why want the best of both worlds? You were a victim of it and you knew how it would have felt to me. Why did I deserve all these? What have I done to deserve all these? and, why did you do it?
I felt anger, disappointment, and betrayed. Yet my heart yearns for the 'you' that I have known. The 'you' that will cling on to me like a baby. The 'you' who will ask for your milo and your prawns peeled. The 'you' who will make little things and comes out with surprises very now and then. The 'you' who love me so much. I miss you, I love you.
You said if I love you, let you go.
I will.
The song that describes everything I feel right now.
安静 - 周杰伦
睡着的大提琴 安静的旧旧的
我想你已表现的非常明白
我懂我也知道 你没有舍不得
你说你也会难过我不相信
牵着你陪着我 也只是曾经
希望他是真的比我还要爱你
我才会逼自己离开
你要我说多难堪 我根本不想分开
为什么还要我用微笑来带过
我没有这种天份 包容你也接受他
不用担心的太多 我会一直好好过
你已经远远离开 我也会慢慢走开
为什么我连分开都迁就着你
我真的没有天份 安静的没这么快
我会学着放弃你 是因为我太爱你
